I feel rejected and hurt , how do i handle the strain?

then stop letting it happen. You're obviously aware of it happen, which shows you aren't as stupid as people take you for. Maybe not relying so much on people over the Internet making friends with you? There are cles that can help with this, maybe visit a group and get to know people you can see face to face going through these same problems? That way they'll know how you feel and know what you're going through and are less akin to play you over?